The L word

Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation- Kahlil Gibran

She re-read the words over and over in her mind, trying to comprehend the depth of what it meant.Various sounds around enticing her wandering mind.The clank of vessels, a wayward song, the tap tap of fingers on the keyboard. STOP! and FOCUS! she scolded herself.She felt disconnected and out of touch, that funny sensation when your head disconnects from the rest of your body, well not quite really.She hadn't smoked POT to feel that. It just was, that powerful unshakable feeling creeping over her skin.

She squirmed and tried to concentrate, "I must write, write the pain away, write the memories into oblivion, write a bit and then write some more."

She felt aimless and lost. A thought bubble popped up next to her-Lesson Learnt!

Not really, she smirked. Yes I know, she admitted to the person within.Too much lost but so much gained.She felt it swell and rise from within, a batch of freshly squeezed tears rolled down her cheeks.

Her head blasted, that heavy hollow feeling she had gotten used to.Everything had slowed down, stopped, halted, paused and all the adjectives one could find to describe it but she didn't though she tried.

Sigh, she bent over the smudges of ink and the broken nibs, the blotches on paper like torn petals, all creativity lost, all sense vanished.

I won't give up she thought, so its not the best time for me.She felt screwed up and everything around seemed macabre and dark. The word used,abused,cherished,assumed and what she'd once believed.

She snorted to herself, so much for The L Word.

The Me'sights'- Yes,I'm trying to be hilarious and witty through this but honestly its just a mish mash of how I feel. Its been 6 months since I wrote or so and I feel somewhat rusted and new. But like you must have figured, this is what Heartbreak feels like.Wrong, confusing,unfair and so much more that I can use to describe it. I could have used a seriously miserable title but this one just seems more like me, sorta miserable but still funny in a lame way.

So well, here goes.Not one of my best ones but then again, there's more to come ;)